"Nah, I love kids," He said easily, fingers returning to rub slow, small circles into Finn's scalp.

"The whole process of getting them is kind of the issue. Though, I guess there's always adoption."

He knew he was toeing the line real close, here. He wasn't out, on campus. Not that he was afraid to be, but mostly because his adoptive mother had a pretty high position in the faculty and he was already enough of a loose canon. There were enough rumours about him banging every girl on the cheerleading team, he didn't need to add to that. Those rumours got people to back off. But he was a little too well aware of just how bad his sexuality would go down with certain segments of the population on campus. And he couldn't afford to knock someone out cold for it, which he almost definitely would do.

So he'd told himself to just cool it until after college. Not hard, right? He had a hand and the internet. He'd make it through.

But that was before he'd met Finn and convinced the other man to move in. Now, his reason for staying in the closet was a solely selfish one. The last thing he wanted was for Finn to feel like he'd been lied to, or even worse, unsafe. What if he found out and then didn't let Poe get this close to him, anymore?

So he told himself that it was fine, that they'd be friends, and that he didn't care.

And then just never actually stated how he felt about anything, sexuality wise.

That was safer, right?

Safer, maybe, but also killing him slowly. And he couldn't help, on days like this, thinking that divulging that information was worth the risk. That surely he and Finn were so close that Finn wouldn't just reject him?

Damn it, why was he such a coward now. Just say it, Poe. Say 'having kids as a gay man is a bit more complicated'. Say it. Say it.

"At least I'll have a cute robot in the meantime."


... Sigh.