He took a step forward before he realised what he was doing and stopped dead in his tracks. He stepped back again, shaking his head.

"No." He didn't trust himself to be near Finn right now. Everything was still a lot, and he felt like if he wasn't always constantly watching himself, he'd fall into something he couldn't pull himself back out of.

He had a choice, right now. He could have what he wanted - what he so desperately, desperately wanted - or he could stop himself from making Finn into something like him.

He didn't know what he was, exactly, but the look on Finn's face yesterday had made it clear that whatever it was, it was horrifying and disgusting.