There were so many things he wanted, so many things he felt he shouldn't have or was better off without. Then there were things he wasn't even sure he didn't want anymore. It was all so confusing, making Poe's question loaded when it shouldn't have been.

"I... want you to be okay. I want us to go slow and learn to talk to each other and-... I don't want to give up on us."

But he should. Was he crazy? Was his dream right? He shouldn't even be around Poe, would just make everything worse and keep him in this spiral when he clearly wanted out.

"If you don't want to be with me, I understand. But if you do, then I want to try it. Take things slowly, you know?"