"We don't know that," he responded just as quietly. And it wasn't even just the whole thing with Rose. "We're in the middle of a war. Anything could happen. I want to be with you before that happens."
But, yeah, he was sure that Poe didn't mind waiting. He had 622 and whoever else he'd already asked for this. Finn had no one, left waiting until- until, what? Until Poe was ready? Until they were home and dead?
... It was thoughts like this that would make this whole thing difficult. Not jealousy but loneliness. Abandonment. Giving all of himself when Poe couldn't give the same. In his mind, he knew it wouldn't really be that way, didn't work like that, but he was already afraid that those feelings and thoughts would ruin them. But he also didn't care. He wanted it more than he was afraid of ruining it.
Finn turned his head away from Poe's touch and stepped back to look at him. "I want this with you, Poe. Do you?" Because trying to spare room for Finn's feelings sounded more like an excuse than anything.
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But, yeah, he was sure that Poe didn't mind waiting. He had 622 and whoever else he'd already asked for this. Finn had no one, left waiting until- until, what? Until Poe was ready? Until they were home and dead?
... It was thoughts like this that would make this whole thing difficult. Not jealousy but loneliness. Abandonment. Giving all of himself when Poe couldn't give the same. In his mind, he knew it wouldn't really be that way, didn't work like that, but he was already afraid that those feelings and thoughts would ruin them. But he also didn't care. He wanted it more than he was afraid of ruining it.
Finn turned his head away from Poe's touch and stepped back to look at him. "I want this with you, Poe. Do you?" Because trying to spare room for Finn's feelings sounded more like an excuse than anything.