"... I don't know." He would say it had nothing to do with Maul, but his anger and need to be rid of him again quickly might tip Finn to the dark again. Who could say?
But it wasn't like what Poe thought. Or what Finn assumed Poe thought. "I wasn't lured there by Maul in the first place. I just... wanted to protect you, protect you and Rey. It had to be done fast, and that was the easiest way. No one else would do it, I didn't want anyone else to have to."
He was starting to get on a roll, starting to spiral and really panic. Finn pulled his hands away and stood, walking around the table and just steadily moving away as he spoke. "It was all excuses at the end. I was prepared to die, so I didn't care anymore. I became them, Poe. I became a Sith without the Force, and now it's here and I'm already messed up. I can't do this again. I can't hurt you. I know I'll hurt you this time--"
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But it wasn't like what Poe thought. Or what Finn assumed Poe thought. "I wasn't lured there by Maul in the first place. I just... wanted to protect you, protect you and Rey. It had to be done fast, and that was the easiest way. No one else would do it, I didn't want anyone else to have to."
He was starting to get on a roll, starting to spiral and really panic. Finn pulled his hands away and stood, walking around the table and just steadily moving away as he spoke. "It was all excuses at the end. I was prepared to die, so I didn't care anymore. I became them, Poe. I became a Sith without the Force, and now it's here and I'm already messed up. I can't do this again. I can't hurt you. I know I'll hurt you this time--"