"I've got you," Poe promised, his voice dropping lower at the same moment his hand did, seeking out Finn's and squeezing it tightly.
"We've got each other, alright? And besides, it can't be all bad. Now you can lift any rocks that happen to fall on me." It's a weak joke, but he's trying.
Finn smiles at the weak joke but he doesn't exactly feel the humor. The only honest thing he does is rise up to sit next to Poe, gripping his hand tight again.
"Maybe try not to be under any falling rocks."
Another weak joke to fit the mood. Though his eyes are back to staring at nothing, he actually seems a bit better now. Finn takes a breath and wipes at his face again. "It's probably not a good idea to try going any further than I am." Aka, he's still terrified of himself. "But I do have two lightsabers. Maybe picking that up again won't be so bad."
Maybe.
His eyes meet Poe's. "I have to use it somehow. Do some sort of good with it. Make things right."
Finn watched him but was unsure that Poe could help with this. Beyond existing in the same reality with him, anyway, happy and safe.
"... Okay. We'll do this together." For now. It's not that he wanted to lose himself and end up hurting Poe. It just-... Mm.
He wished he had the same faith in himself that Poe apparently did. But he still didn't know everything. Didn't know Darth Martis or seen Zodiark or... any of it. So the faith was hard to believe but he would make himself believe it. "Thank you."
Finn probably could get rid of him but he didn't want to try. He also didn't want to let go.
"I-... I felt alone on Vaikuntha. I missed you and Rey so much. I think that-" That it made him weaker, more prone to the darkness in a frail attempt to protect what wasn't there. But that also felt like it was putting part of the blame on Poe and that wasn't fair.
"Being here with you helps a lot more than you could possibly know. If I do try to push you away, it isn't because I want you gone. I just want to keep you safe, that's all... But I'll try to keep you close, too."
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"You'd do the same for me, right? So, let's just make sure neither of us has to put the other in that place, okay?"
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But he couldn't say that. Finn just nodded. "Okay... I'm sorry, I'll-... Things will be better this time. With you here." He thinks.
He can already feel it but... he thinks.
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"We've got each other, alright? And besides, it can't be all bad. Now you can lift any rocks that happen to fall on me." It's a weak joke, but he's trying.
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"Maybe try not to be under any falling rocks."
Another weak joke to fit the mood. Though his eyes are back to staring at nothing, he actually seems a bit better now. Finn takes a breath and wipes at his face again. "It's probably not a good idea to try going any further than I am." Aka, he's still terrified of himself. "But I do have two lightsabers. Maybe picking that up again won't be so bad."
Maybe.
His eyes meet Poe's. "I have to use it somehow. Do some sort of good with it. Make things right."
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He gave Finn's hand a firm squeeze.
"So, do good with it. We can do good with it together, Finn. It doesn't have to be nothing but bleakness from here on out."
Even if Poe had no idea what to do with himself or where to go.
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"... Okay. We'll do this together." For now. It's not that he wanted to lose himself and end up hurting Poe. It just-... Mm.
He wished he had the same faith in himself that Poe apparently did. But he still didn't know everything. Didn't know Darth Martis or seen Zodiark or... any of it. So the faith was hard to believe but he would make himself believe it. "Thank you."
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He probably didn't need to keep holding Finn's hand like this, but, well, he wasn't going to let go until Finn did first.
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"I-... I felt alone on Vaikuntha. I missed you and Rey so much. I think that-" That it made him weaker, more prone to the darkness in a frail attempt to protect what wasn't there. But that also felt like it was putting part of the blame on Poe and that wasn't fair.
"Being here with you helps a lot more than you could possibly know. If I do try to push you away, it isn't because I want you gone. I just want to keep you safe, that's all... But I'll try to keep you close, too."