;poe

[hatejakku]

Sex Pollen Pre Relationship
Poe Dies Pre Relationship
Nightmare Early Relationship
Hogwarts AU Pre Relationship
Poe Almost Dies Pre Relationship
MoM AU First Night
Slightly Older Hogwarts AU
Post-TLJ
Bodyguard and Prince AU; overflow
Massage Pre Relationship
Oblivious Poe AU
Cyborg Poe AU
MoM AU Sex Pollen
FO Infiltration Sex Ring
TFLN
Soulmate Tattoo AU
Finn Marries Someone Else AU
Evil Finn AU; overflow: 1, 2
MoM AU Poe 10 Yrs Older
Vamp/Were AU
Missing for a Year/Telepathy AU
MoM AU Poe 'canon' updated
Dark Possessive AU
Married on Yavin AU
MoM AU Sexy Outfits
MoM AU Subway Sex
MoM AU with Melodies!Finn; overflow
MoM AU Photo-Op Kiss
Nearly Old Men AU
MoM AU Rule 63
Online Dating AU
MoM AU Poe Lost His In-Game Memories; overflow
Trans Poe AU
College Roommate AU
TIE Pilot/Prostitute AU
MoM AU Finn Returns from Port-Out
MoM AU Manipulative Masturbation Machine
Canon AU Manipulative Masturbation Machine
Shape Shifter AU; timeskip
FO Sexual Torture AU
MoM AU Finn Has a Boyfriend
Hades AU Finn Left Alone
MoM AU Apocalypse
MoM AU Poe Died in Canon
Canon AU Handjob in a Hospital (inspiration)
MoM AU Another Apocalypse
WWI Pen-Pal/Love Letters AU
Institutionalized Prostitution AU
MoM AU Body Swap
Post-TROS Victory Party

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College Roommates AU

[hatejakku]

Finn lay back in his bed, staring at the ceiling with an open textbook near his shoulder. He could not focus on psychology right now. The more he tried to focus, the more his thoughts wandered to his roommate, the less he could think about anything he was reading.

His roommate in question was the charitable, handsome, charming, sweet, brave, ridiculously funny Poe Dameron of questionable sexuality. It was practically an affront, really. Finn almost wanted to be offended by Poe's mere existence, but they had become the best of friends since they started bunking together, and there was nothing about him that Finn could possibly resent. He was lovely.

And extremely far out of Finn's league, it wasn't even funny. While Finn had distracted himself by wondering if Poe was attracted to men or not, it was pretty much just a distraction. Even if he was, Poe would never see him as more than a friend.

He took a deep breath, trying to pull his mind away from those kinds of thoughts, when Poe walked into the room. Finn shot up, textbook slapping him on the way but he managed to ignore it. "Oh, hey."

[flightforfreedom]

"Hey, buddy," Poe replied instantly, a warm, honest smile coming to his lips as he tossed his bag down just inside the door and started kicking off his shoes.

He'd been in Experimental Robotics all afternoon, which always put him in a good mood, and he didn't even think twice before walking over and flopping down on Finn's bed next to him, like he had absolutely no concept of personal space.

"How's the reading going?"

[hatejakku]

Finn's heart was already doing funny things by the time Poe flopped onto the bed with him. Might as well add physical closeness to the mix. "Reading." Reading.

Reading! He picked up the textbook. "Ah, right. It's awful. Psychology really isn't for me, man. How was class?" Finn knew what class Poe had gotten out of it. He didn't know very much about it other than he loved it simply because Poe was always so happy when he got out.

[flightforfreedom]

Poe laughed and reached over to rub Finn's head. Damn, his hair always felt nice.

"Sorry, man, Psychology really ain't my beat either, if I'm honest. Otherwise I'd offer to help." As it is, he's being 'helpful' by just sort of massaging Finn's scalp.

"Really good. Got all the locomotion worked out, the motor's in and runs real good. Hopefully by the end of the semester he'll be in a state where I can bring him home and you can meet him properly."

[hatejakku]

All of Finn's anxieties vanished in the face of one of Poe's famous scalp massages. He smiled a little to himself, leaning into it without shame. It felt nice, okay? And if this was as close as they were going to get, he'd take every second.

But then his eyes popped open. Wait, when had he closed them? Never mind. "He? Poe, did you name your robot?" He smiles, finding this man so endearing. Poe had already been talking about it like it was more than just a machine but now-

Well, who could blame Finn if he fell a little more?

[flightforfreedom]

Poe grinned, his smile lopsided, not at all ashamed, and he shrugged but didn't stop the massage.

"Yeah. Figured it was a little weird to just keep calling him 'the project', right? I named him Beebee."

If he shuffled a little closer so that Finn could lean in against him, who was going to complain?

[hatejakku]

Not Finn. He took to it instantly, leaning against Poe like everyone did this with their friends. Poe certainly seemed to. He liked to touch, enjoyed handing out his soft smiles. It was confusing, sometimes annoying, but always welcome. If Poe was like that with everyone, then it meant he was like this with Finn, too. Who could argue that?

"Beebee," he repeated with a happy laugh. "I like it. Any reason behind the name?"

[flightforfreedom]

"I was thinking of just naming him the 'Big Ball' but I hated it," Poe said with a laugh, his heart doing a weird little flip when Finn nestled into his side. Calm down, Dameron. Finn's just like this. He'd hold a hug for an hour with anyone if they let him.

"You'll like him, I think. I've been working on the AI in the meantime and he's going to be the cutest robot to ever exist or I'll eat my own socks."

[hatejakku]

Finn laughs simply because Poe laughs. The original name is kind of funny, too, though. He just likes the sound of Poe being happy more.

"I can't imagine I wouldn't like him." Something Poe's built. How could he not like it? "I, uh- I don't really know how all this works, but- I mean, is he... awake yet?" Is that the right term for this? To Poe, probably.

[flightforfreedom]

An amused smile pulls at Poe's lips and he turns his head to find Finn's surprisingly close. Well. Maybe not surprisingly, given the fact that he practically pulled the guy onto him.

He kept slowly massaging his scalp.

"Nah, nah. None of the onboard computing systems are functional yet, I'm still running all the locomotion tests from a cable connected to my laptop. I'm still programming him. But once I get it all ready to go, I'll load it up onto his onboard computer. I'm not the best programmer in the world, but Jess is helping me out with it."

Jessika Pava was one of Poe's closest friends, as Finn likely well knew. And she'd been a bit cold, at first, but she'd warmed up since. She and Poe were often thick as thieves.

"Though I don't actually let her touch him, because I swear every robot she touches falls apart within a week. It's like a curse."

[hatejakku]

Finn wasn't... jealous of Jess, per se. He probably should be. She was beautiful, brilliant, captured Poe's attention, and shared all of his interests. Finn liked her, though, even when she had been more aloof towards him.

She and Poe would make a good couple. They complimented each other well, as shown with Beebee's whole design. "Sounds like you two make a good team," he answered with a less brilliant smile but didn't pull away.

"I'm really excited to meet him. And it sounds like a lot of progress is getting done lately. Congrats, Poe. You're nearly a father."

[flightforfreedom]

Sure, the idea of Poe and Jess as a couple had been floated before. A few times. Usually with Jess begging him to pretend to be her boyfriend and go home with her over thanksgiving so that her family would stop asking her questions about it.

They made a great team. They just played for opposing ones.

Poe laughed again, and rustled Finn’s hair fondly.

“Close as I’m ever going to get, anyway,” he teased back.

[hatejakku]

"Hmm?" His eyebrows shot up, but Finn didn't look too shocked. "Not a kid person, huh? Robots are probably a lot easier to look after." Probably. He wasn't really sure.

But now he was thinking about Poe around children, and it was doing even worse things to his heart. Someone this kind would make a great father someday if he ever wanted to. It made Finn's heart warm to think of Poe as a family man, whether kids were in the picture or not. Just happy with whoever he loved.

... Right. Time to think of something else. "I don't know much about robots, though, so don't quote me on that."

[flightforfreedom]

"Nah, I love kids," He said easily, fingers returning to rub slow, small circles into Finn's scalp.

"The whole process of getting them is kind of the issue. Though, I guess there's always adoption."

He knew he was toeing the line real close, here. He wasn't out, on campus. Not that he was afraid to be, but mostly because his adoptive mother had a pretty high position in the faculty and he was already enough of a loose canon. There were enough rumours about him banging every girl on the cheerleading team, he didn't need to add to that. Those rumours got people to back off. But he was a little too well aware of just how bad his sexuality would go down with certain segments of the population on campus. And he couldn't afford to knock someone out cold for it, which he almost definitely would do.

So he'd told himself to just cool it until after college. Not hard, right? He had a hand and the internet. He'd make it through.

But that was before he'd met Finn and convinced the other man to move in. Now, his reason for staying in the closet was a solely selfish one. The last thing he wanted was for Finn to feel like he'd been lied to, or even worse, unsafe. What if he found out and then didn't let Poe get this close to him, anymore?

So he told himself that it was fine, that they'd be friends, and that he didn't care.

And then just never actually stated how he felt about anything, sexuality wise.

That was safer, right?

Safer, maybe, but also killing him slowly. And he couldn't help, on days like this, thinking that divulging that information was worth the risk. That surely he and Finn were so close that Finn wouldn't just reject him?

Damn it, why was he such a coward now. Just say it, Poe. Say 'having kids as a gay man is a bit more complicated'. Say it. Say it.

"At least I'll have a cute robot in the meantime."


... Sigh.

[hatejakku]

Oh... Finn didn't what the trouble was, whether it was serious or something else. What he did is that Poe wasn't making a fuss over it, so he shouldn't do so either. "Sorry," he said instead, leaning back against him again like it was comforting to Poe or something.

It did sort of feel like he was just told a secret in confidence, though. That was special. That, at least, was something to treasure... Unless he was just lagging behind on the little snippet secrets of Poe that other people got to see daily. Again, who could tell?

"Well," he continued, like there hadn't been a weird bump in the conversation, "I think you'll make a really great robot dad."

[flightforfreedom]

His heart did another weird flip thing, stuttering. Damn it. He really was just right off the deep end here, wasn’t he?

He wet his lips unconsciously and then slowly - smoothly - pulled his fingers away from Finn’s hair and settled his arm around the man’s shoulders instead. He gave a squeeze, but then didn’t let go. It was fine? This was fine.

He cleared his throat and then said with a grin, “Knowing you, it’ll want you to adopt him in the first minute of meeting you. I’ll have to beg you to split custody.”

[hatejakku]

"Yeah?" Finn smiled broadly, figuring this was more of a joke than anything. The way Poe said it sort of implied more, but he couldn't let himself dwell on those implications.

So he took it as a joke. How else was he supposed to take it? "Like I said, you'd do a great job. I don't think I'd mind splitting with you."

It was supposed to be a joke, but just talking about this made his heart constrict a little. It'd probably hurt more later when he was thinking about his without Poe's smile to distract him.

[flightforfreedom]

“Haven’t minded splitting anything with you yet,” Poe said easily, the smile broad even as his chest felt firm of fluttering wings. Damn it.

He was really, really playing it close. He needed to change the subject, fast.

He turned his head, and there was Finn, right under his nose. He couldn’t help but draw a long breath in. Damn it, Finn smelled so good—

He chuckled at his own stupidity, but then murmured nearly into Finn’s hair. “You eaten yet?” Cool bro, good save.

[hatejakku]

For half a second, Finn was convinced that Poe had been about to kiss him. Just something about that pause and being so close to him...

Delusional, maybe. Hopeful, definitely. He relaxed again, nearly settling into Poe's neck and chest, being absolutely ridiculous.

"No." His voice came out soft, unsure, and he had to clear it to sound normal again. "Not yet. Wanna go grab something?"

Maybe it'd be better to have a minute alone, but Finn wasn't that nice to himself.

[flightforfreedom]

He was hearing things, that’s all it was. That quiet waver in Finn’s voice, the anticipation... that was Poe’s imagination.

And yet, he squeezed Finn a little harder, pulling him a little closer. His heart could stop hammering any second now...

“... why don’t we order something in?” He murmured before he could stop himself.

[hatejakku]

Finn took a deep breath when Poe pulled him closer, his eyes fluttering closed for half a second only because he knew it wouldn't be seen at this angle. Oh, how easy it would be to pretend. To just believe this was always and had been always part of more.

It felt like it was. Finn swallowed. "Sounds good. What do you have... in mind...?"

Looking up at Poe was a bad idea. He could count every eyelash right now if he wanted to, but Poe's eyes alone were distracting, looking at him like that.

... He wasn't looking at him like anything, though. This was all in Finn's head. He should turn away. Or... wait until Poe did first... But he did clear his throat. "Whatever you want. I'm, uh, up for anything." Because this was normal and fine.

[flightforfreedom]

He felt almost drunk, his mind racing as it tried to convince him to both kiss Finn and stop looking atFinn at the same time. It was reading every tiny movement Finn made with likely 100x more intention that there actually was.

He felt like his heart was about to tear in two.

“Anything?” He asked, unable to keep the husky Hope from his voice.

It was too late. Part of him had already decided what to do as soon as Finn looked up at him like that. The delay was just the rest of him catching up. He leaned in, a fraction of an inch, breath hitching as he paused. He wanted to give Finn a chance to stop him, but not enough of one to smash his hearts to pieces first.

So he leaned in, the tension between them thick, and then finally he was leaning the rest of the way and placing a very careful, very chaste kiss upon those soft, perfect lips.

[hatejakku]

Finn couldn't believe it was happening while Poe was leaning in. He couldn't believe it when he was... being kissed. He couldn't believe this.

He froze, unbreathing, eyes wide. He couldn't believe it so much that processing the feeling of Poe's lips pressing against his was nearly impossible.

This could not be happening.

Though once he realized that something certainly was, he pressed in just a tiny bit, just enough to feel it and remind himself that this was- this- this was happening?

[flightforfreedom]

It didn’t last long.

Poe felt Finn freeze and immediately a cold chill washed over him. Idiot. Idiot, idiot, idiot. Reading what you want to in a situation and not what’s actually there.

He inwardly cursed himself, drawing back before he realised Finn was pressing in.

“Sorry,” he murmured quickly, “sorry, Finn, I should’ve—“

[hatejakku]

He nearly fell right over once Poe pulled away, but caught himself. "You kissed me," was the first thing he said with eyes wide and hope filling his chest.

Poe just kissed him. Just like that.

... Wait, why was he apologizing?