flightforfreedom: (worn out and broken down)

MoM Apocalypse AU

[personal profile] flightforfreedom 2019-11-01 06:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Poe didn't often feel fear.

In the times that normal people would feel fear, Poe often felt completely different things. Like Excitement. Or Anger. Or Despair. But rarely fear. He wouldn't have been able to describe the emotion very well, if asked.

But he knew what it felt like, now.

It was the helplessness, mostly. Poe had never really been in a situation where he felt like he couldn't do anything - but that's where they were, now. The universe was tearing itself apart - literally - and there wasn't even a fight to be had. Nothing he could fire a gun at, or fly a plane into. It was all happening entirely beyond his control.

No one knew what would happen, afterward. Some of the older imPorts had talked about being shunted from one universe to another, when it ended, so maybe there was a chance that they'd survive in some form or fashion. But not everyone had made the trip. And the being that had managed to give them passage? She was one of the ones currently locked in a deadly battle that he could barely even fathom. She probably wasn't coming out of this alive.

So he was going to die.

It wasn't really his death that had him so afraid, though. Everyone he cared about, here - an entire 2 and a half year life - they were all going, too. And there were things he hadn't said and things he hadn't done that he was feeling a deep regret about, now.

They'd managed to find a relatively secure patch of ground - a bunker set up around the porter complex - even when other parts of the planet were literally disintegrating.

He was going mad, not being able to do anything, his thoughts rampaging and despairing. He couldn't sit still. He wouldn't. If he couldn't go down fighting --

Well, at least he wouldn't go down quietly. He would fix one regret.

Everyone was watching huge video screens, the end of the world unfolding before them, as Poe reached out and grabbed Finn's hand, leading him out of the room and into the quiet, abandoned hallway.
flightforfreedom: (got something to tell me?)

[personal profile] flightforfreedom 2019-11-02 05:12 am (UTC)(link)
He knew he should say something. Apologize, maybe. Confess. But instead his hand just tightened around Finn’s as he led the down the hall. He opened the first door he came across - it looked like a meeting room or a conference room, with a big table and a bunch of chairs. He finally let go of Finn’s hand, looking for all the world like he had something incredibly important to say.

But no words came.

Instead, he stepped closer, meeting Finn’s gaze with his own, unable to completely wipe the fear from his expression, and reached out to grasp behind his neck and pull the man into a firm kiss.
flightforfreedom: (probably in trouble)

[personal profile] flightforfreedom 2019-11-02 12:54 pm (UTC)(link)
Finn’s expression broke his heart, instantly shattering. He did that. He made Finn look at him like that. The fear wasn’t pacified - if anything, it grew stronger - and Poe had the sudden distinct impression that he had done the absolutely opposite thing he should have. His lips parted, his heart hammering painfully in his chest as he scoured his brain for something to say that would get Finn to stop looking at him like that. But before any words could come, Finn was pulling him back in, and Poe’s heart stuttered for a completely different reason, a low sound almost like a whimper or a moan in the back of his throat.

He returned the kiss with the same desperate passion, but it gave him the courage to speak he hadn’t found before, and he pulled back, lips reddened and breathing hard, jabs still clasped around Finn’s neck.

“I’m sorry,” he finally got out, his voice rough with emotion. “I’m so sorry, Finn— I wasted everything—“
flightforfreedom: (you're my whole world bro)

[personal profile] flightforfreedom 2019-11-02 02:29 pm (UTC)(link)
The words died on his tongue at the ‘don’t’. Finn was wrong - he was wrong - every moment Poe had spent apart from him had been a moment where he was lying to himself. But he couldn’t argue the request - especially not when a second later Finn was dragging him up against him and kissing him like that.

He groaned, melting into the kiss, threading his arms around Finn’s neck and pulling him closer, as if he could press his body into the spaces between Finn’s atoms.

But the ability to keep his mouth shut didn’t last for long, groaning into Finn’s mouth.

“I’ll find you,” he promised roughly, between deep, passionate, desperate kisses. “If we— i’ll Find you, I don’t care how, whatever happens. Even if we’re just pieces of the Force, I’ll find you.”
flightforfreedom: (wait for the worst)

[personal profile] flightforfreedom 2019-11-02 04:05 pm (UTC)(link)
"Yes I can," Poe whispered with utter conviction, his hands coming up to frame Finn's face, pinned between them.

"This isn't it. I know it. I don't know what - what we'll be after this, or where we'll be, or how much of us will be left, but I--" He swallowed, smoothing a hand over Finn's hair, pressing his fingers between tight curls. "It doesn't matter. Because I'll find you. And I'll never let you go again."
flightforfreedom: (that's a throat)

[personal profile] flightforfreedom 2019-11-03 01:31 am (UTC)(link)
He couldn't ignore them completely. Of course he couldn't. He wanted to scrub them from Finn's face - cover him with kisses until they disappeared. But his own eyes were growing hot, just from looking at Finn's face, and the low, rough promise between fierce, hard kisses broke him, as well.

But maybe if he didn't say anything about Finn's tears, the man wouldn't say anything about his own.

His heart was slamming so hard in his chest that he could feel it in his throat, and he pushed the feeling down as firmly as he could, kissing Finn back with a passion that leaned into desperation, fingers tangling in his shirt as Poe deepened the kiss.

Neither of them could promise it. Of course they couldn't. But Poe had to believe it.

He had to.

They'd be luminous.
flightforfreedom: (worn out and broken down)

[personal profile] flightforfreedom 2019-11-03 02:23 am (UTC)(link)
It clenched in his chest, almost painfully, the regret so sharp as to be overwhelming. He'd wasted it. It had been right here, right at his side, this whole time, and he'd wasted it.

"I love you so much, Finn," he whispered back, his voice thick even as he swallowed around the words, even as they were pressed so close that he couldn't tell where his heart beat ended and Finn's began. He felt the back of his thighs hit the edge of the table, and he gripped Finn harder, surging forward for a kiss even as he pulled Finn down against him. "I love you so much, I should have been telling you every day--"
flightforfreedom: (need a little bit of hope)

[personal profile] flightforfreedom 2019-11-03 02:54 am (UTC)(link)
"Not enough," Poe choked out. He knew it. Finn didn't have to say it. It had never been enough. It had always been held back, guarded. Restrained. For what?

For what?

He grunted as he hit the table, pulling Finn's body flush down against his own. It was only then that he realised he was hard, but it was almost an afterthought. He just wanted to be with Finn. He didn't care how. He wanted to be with Finn, as the universe dissolved around them.

"Not nearly enough," he breathed, taking Finn's mouth again, wrapping his limbs and gripping him tightly against himself, as if he could mold them together.
flightforfreedom: (the best hug)

[personal profile] flightforfreedom 2019-11-03 01:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Finn was pulling at his clothes and it was like he had slid a key into a lock, and given Poe the final elements of his freedom. He couldn’t initiate it himself, but was soon as Finn did, that was permission. He moaned lowly against Finn’s mouth as heir hips pressed together - he could feel how hard Finn was even through layers of cloth, and it just made him harder in return.

“I love you,” he echoed breathlessly, fingers digging into clothing and pulling sharply, suddenly determined to get everything off him. He wanted his and Finn’s atoms to be so close as to be indistinguishable from each other. “I love you so much, Finn. I love you—“
flightforfreedom: (total loss)

[personal profile] flightforfreedom 2019-11-03 05:38 pm (UTC)(link)
His heart was thundering in his chest. He didn't know how much time they had left and he almost didn't care - every second of it was already dedicated to Finn. He didn't want to be anywhere else. He clumsily tossed Finn's shirt off, then fumbled with his belt, tossing that off to the side too. The hard wood of the boardroom table beneath him would bruise, probably, but he couldn't care about that either.

He wasn't exactly going to live long enough to see the bruises.

He got Finn's fly open and pushed his pants down his hips before getting his hands around Finn's ass and pulling him sharply against him. The outline of Finn's hard cock was even clearer against his own and he groaned, eyes falling shut.

"W-Wait--" He suddenly said, pausing.

He could feel a weight on his chest that shouldn't be there, anymore.
flightforfreedom: (space backdrop)

[personal profile] flightforfreedom 2019-11-03 05:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Given the space, Poe's hand immediately went to the chain at his throat, clumsily and quickly undoing the clasp. He pulled it free from his neck and then took Finn's hand and pressed the ring into his palm, closing Finn's fingers around it tightly.

"It was my mom's," he explained quickly. "Should have given it to you the moment I knew. It's yours."
flightforfreedom: (so mad i threw my necklace out)

[personal profile] flightforfreedom 2019-11-03 06:10 pm (UTC)(link)
"It's yours," He insisted quickly, reaching up to take Finn's face between his hands and then arching up to steal a kiss and try to bring him back down with him.

"You don't have to - it was her wedding ring, and I know I can't ask that, but at the very least you should have it. I'm not letting anything happen to you without it."
flightforfreedom: (plot the course)

[personal profile] flightforfreedom 2019-11-03 06:46 pm (UTC)(link)
He let out a breath that was somewhere between a sob and a laugh, his eyes suddenly brimming with moisture. Force, he was a fool.

“Yeah?” He asked dumbly, his voice thick and choked. “Okay. Okay— Marry me, Finn,” he whispered, a pained smile drawing so wide across his face that it wasn’t only his heart that hurt. “I’ll ask again, later, I promise, but marry me now, too.”

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