;poe

[hatejakku]

Sex Pollen Pre Relationship
Poe Dies Pre Relationship
Nightmare Early Relationship
Hogwarts AU Pre Relationship
Poe Almost Dies Pre Relationship
MoM AU First Night
Slightly Older Hogwarts AU
Post-TLJ
Bodyguard and Prince AU; overflow
Massage Pre Relationship
Oblivious Poe AU
Cyborg Poe AU
MoM AU Sex Pollen
FO Infiltration Sex Ring
TFLN
Soulmate Tattoo AU
Finn Marries Someone Else AU
Evil Finn AU; overflow: 1, 2
MoM AU Poe 10 Yrs Older
Vamp/Were AU
Missing for a Year/Telepathy AU
MoM AU Poe 'canon' updated
Dark Possessive AU
Married on Yavin AU
MoM AU Sexy Outfits
MoM AU Subway Sex
MoM AU with Melodies!Finn; overflow
MoM AU Photo-Op Kiss
Nearly Old Men AU
MoM AU Rule 63
Online Dating AU
MoM AU Poe Lost His In-Game Memories; overflow
Trans Poe AU
College Roommate AU
TIE Pilot/Prostitute AU
MoM AU Finn Returns from Port-Out
MoM AU Manipulative Masturbation Machine
Canon AU Manipulative Masturbation Machine
Shape Shifter AU; timeskip
FO Sexual Torture AU
MoM AU Finn Has a Boyfriend
Hades AU Finn Left Alone
MoM AU Apocalypse
MoM AU Poe Died in Canon
Canon AU Handjob in a Hospital (inspiration)
MoM AU Another Apocalypse
WWI Pen-Pal/Love Letters AU
Institutionalized Prostitution AU
MoM AU Body Swap
Post-TROS Victory Party

Comments

[flightforfreedom]

“Yeah I am never reminding you of that,” he said wryly, but he groaned lowly, rocking his body against Finn’s, his heart starting to hammer.

His blood kept pulsing down to his groin, a little less lazily with each passing moment, and he arched his neck to press open kisses to Finn’s throat.

“... How am I supposed to ever want to leave this island?” He asked, low and breathless.

[hatejakku]

"Don't," Finn answered in a breathless laugh. "I don't want to leave either. Why couldn't we stay?"

It was almost an honest question. He didn't want to ever leave. Finn mouthed at Poe's throat, working on making a nice mark just for him.

[flightforfreedom]

“Food. Death by exposure,” he suggested wryly, moaning softly as he felt the sharp prick at his throat. Finn was marking him, and god but he wanted it. Wanted everyone to see who he belonged—

Oh. Oh, fuck. A sudden stab of guilt lanced through his chest. 622... he hadn’t even spared a thought for the man this whole time-/

[hatejakku]

The sudden guilt felt like a knife to the heart.

Finn quickly pulled away, hovering over Poe with large eyes. "What? What's wrong?" Was he okay? Did Finn do something wrong?

[flightforfreedom]

Ah, fuck. Finn felt that. Of course he did. Poe made a miserable expression and put a hand over his face, scrubbing it.

His other hand was still resting on Finn's naked hip.

"Sorry, I just... Fuck, I'm so happy, but that's-- Fuck, I'm going to hurt him--"

[hatejakku]

"Hurt-" But it occurred to him before he could even spit the question out. 622.

Finn froze before moving off of Poe and sitting a bit away. "I thought-" He wasn't sure what he thought. That 622 would be okay with this? He hadn't thought of the other man at all, only Poe's feelings for him. They hadn't stopped anything. He'd just assumed-

He very much assumed wrong, though. What the hell were they doing? What were they thinking?

[flightforfreedom]

He lay back in the sand, half wishing for the sea to just take him and carry him away.

"... I'm sorry, I--" How could he possibly explain it. He cursed quietly and scrubbed so hard at his eyes he saw stars.

"You... Fuck, I'm sorry, I should never have-- I knew I should have waited, then none of this - we could have--"

[hatejakku]

Waited? Would waiting have really made any difference?

He swallowed, sitting there for a beat long before finally getting up and looking for his clothes. "We should leave." By all rights, they already left the perfect island they had found love on. All of that was gone now, and Finn felt hollow in its absence aside from Poe's guilt.

[flightforfreedom]

If he'd waited, he never would have gotten together with 622. If he'd waited, if he'd stayed the course, then Finn would have returned, and they could have picked up where they left off, memories or no memories.

He looped an arm over his eyes, the tone of Finn's voice sliding between his ribs like a knife.

Fuck, he was such an asshole. And he ruined every good thing that ever happened to him. He felt a heat stinging his eyes that was almost nothing but grief, and he couldn't understand it well enough to stop it. But he swallowed it down as well as he could, and replied thickly:

"... Yeah. Just... just give me a minute"

[hatejakku]

Finn had walked away, fully intending to give Poe his minute, but the grief and sorrow held him back like an anchor. It was too much, tears springing to his eyes.

He didn't know Poe's thought process but he knew how he felt. What they'd done was wrong but there was never an intention of wrongness. There was nothing malicious about it. He couldn't be angry with Poe even if he thought he should be.

"I still-" Ah, no. Maybe not now. "I still feel the same." Better? Still not a good time. He was the other guy. 622 would blame him even if he didn't blame Poe at all. So. Not helping.

He turned and continued up the beach.