;poe

[hatejakku]

Sex Pollen Pre Relationship
Poe Dies Pre Relationship
Nightmare Early Relationship
Hogwarts AU Pre Relationship
Poe Almost Dies Pre Relationship
MoM AU First Night
Slightly Older Hogwarts AU
Post-TLJ
Bodyguard and Prince AU; overflow
Massage Pre Relationship
Oblivious Poe AU
Cyborg Poe AU
MoM AU Sex Pollen
FO Infiltration Sex Ring
TFLN
Soulmate Tattoo AU
Finn Marries Someone Else AU
Evil Finn AU; overflow: 1, 2
MoM AU Poe 10 Yrs Older
Vamp/Were AU
Missing for a Year/Telepathy AU
MoM AU Poe 'canon' updated
Dark Possessive AU
Married on Yavin AU
MoM AU Sexy Outfits
MoM AU Subway Sex
MoM AU with Melodies!Finn; overflow
MoM AU Photo-Op Kiss
Nearly Old Men AU
MoM AU Rule 63
Online Dating AU
MoM AU Poe Lost His In-Game Memories; overflow
Trans Poe AU
College Roommate AU
TIE Pilot/Prostitute AU
MoM AU Finn Returns from Port-Out
MoM AU Manipulative Masturbation Machine
Canon AU Manipulative Masturbation Machine
Shape Shifter AU; timeskip
FO Sexual Torture AU
MoM AU Finn Has a Boyfriend
Hades AU Finn Left Alone
MoM AU Apocalypse
MoM AU Poe Died in Canon
Canon AU Handjob in a Hospital (inspiration)
MoM AU Another Apocalypse
WWI Pen-Pal/Love Letters AU
Institutionalized Prostitution AU
MoM AU Body Swap
Post-TROS Victory Party

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[flightforfreedom]

Just friends. Didn't want to die without admitting that he shared the Force.

What did he me--

Abruptly, Poe felt all his blood rush to his face.

"... I have to go."

[hatejakku]

Seriously? "No, no, no-"

Finn stepped in front of him, grabbing loosely for his arm again.

But despite his urgency, Finn's voice was quiet, sincere. "Not talking enough out us in this mess. Poe... What did you mean? Why did you ask again on the Star Destroyer?" When they were almost executed...

[flightforfreedom]

He didn't tear his arm away this time, at least, but he did feel like his face was hot enough to light something on fire.

"I -- uh --" He was malfunctioning. Great. This was just great.

He cleared his throat.

"I'm an idiot?" He said, slightly surprised but mostly mortified. "Uh - can we just pretend that - I didn't - Do any of that--"

[hatejakku]

Finn stared at him for a moment and blinked. "No." He could honestly not pretend all of that didn't happen. There was no way he could manage it.

The worst part was, he knew the truth. He already knew why, but he couldn't just say it for him. That would be worse, that's an invasion, and after what Poe had been through- No, he couldn't say it.

Maybe he could just admit his own feelings, but... there was too much uncertainty. Just because love was there didn't mean that Poe wanted to be with him, especially with this new revelation and everything that happened in the past week. Despite the Force, he was still scared.

"You don't-... I can't pretend it didn't happen, but-... Look, if something was bothering you that much, I need to know. I don't want us to be like that again."

They could work on the bad parts without saying the good. Maybe.

[flightforfreedom]

Suddenly Poe really wished that he had gone out in a blazing ball of fire in that last battle - victorious and triumphant and no one aware of just what a fucking idiot he was. Well. Except the people who already knew.

"We won't be," he said quickly, glancing off to the side mostly so he didn't have to meet Finn's eyes, his hand finally lowering. "I, uh - just friends?" He asked, sounding utterly stupid. "Not quote-un-quote 'just friends but secretly not just friends and totally holding a torch since the day you met' friends?'

[hatejakku]

"Just. Friends." That was, what? The third time? Fourth?

He still spoke slowly, enunciating every syllable, arms at his side and palms facing Poe. He needed him to say this. He needed him to say it. "Why does it matter?"

If not now... maybe he would eventually.

[flightforfreedom]

"Cool. Cool, cool, cool." Could he sound more moronic than this? No. Could he possibly stop? Also no. He swallowed.

"Cool. Well - Guess it's kind of... pointless pretending now, huh?" He said, though it was almost to himself. He was silent another few minutes before guiltily looking back at Finn.

"Don't be mad," he asked first, though he knew he didn't have the right to ask that. "But I - well, we're not. Just friends. Not- not to me."

[hatejakku]

Finn almost felt surprised that Poe... admitted it. Still, he stepped closer, eyes and voice soft as a whisper. "You and me?" Not that he really needed the clarification or even expected an answer.

"I- I'm not mad," he said instead, shaking his head a little but unable to look away from Poe's eyes. "I'm really not mad..."

[flightforfreedom]

If Poe hadn't immediately looked away again, frowning off into the distance and raising a hand to rub through his hair, maybe he would have a better idea of Finn's expression right now and wouldn't feel his guts twisting so horribly.

"Well, me towards you, anyway," He clarified, not really wanting to speak for Finn's feelings, for obvious reasons, only then realising that Finn was still looking at him, and feeling his face getting hot again as he forced himself to look back.

"Look, I just - It seemed pretty obvious that your - uh - attention was elsewhere, you know? But then that whole thing happened, and--"

[hatejakku]

"It hasn't," Finn rushed to say. Though, he didn't entirely know what he was saying. What he was trying to say seemed to be stuck somewhere in his chest. "I mean, the war's taken a lot of attention, but no one's really- No one else really--"

Dammit. Dammit, how did he do this? It's not like he had ever planned out what he would say. Despite his affection for Poe, it was almost seamlessly easy to accept that his friend couldn't feel the same way. And he was all right with that. Being closer hadn't mattered when they were already so close to begin with. But, right, the problem, how was he supposed to say this?

How did Poe say it?

"We're not just friends to me either..."

[flightforfreedom]

"It's fine, Finn, just forge--" He'd started saying, before Finn continued. And then he froze.

It was a weird experience, feeling so vulnerable and awkward and uncomfortable at the same time as feeling something white and hot and bright suddenly bloom in his chest. He blinked and searched Finn's face, as if looking for the joke.

"Uh," he said, again, super eloquently. After a moment, with each word slow and sounding both like a question and a statement:

".... So we're... mutually. More than friends."

[hatejakku]

His smile came about a little unbidden to his lips, the corners curling up in a smirk before actually turning into something bright and happy.

"I think so." He was reasonably sure they were on the same page. Well, more than sure if their strengthing connection was anything to go by. "I-... Yes. It's mutual."

But that reminded him and his smile dimmed a little. "The Force isn't... a deal breaker?" With all these confessions, he was worried Poe had glossed over the original problem.

[flightforfreedom]

Poe was halfway between deciding if he should hug him, kiss him, or ask if he could kiss him when Finn’s question came completely out of left field, as far as he was concerned.

“What?” He asked a little stupidly, at first, before his brain caught up. “No? I mean - I guess unless you’re planning on going full Jedi monk on a rock in the middle of no where by yourself—“

[hatejakku]

Well, put simply, he could hardly believe any of this was really happening. It felt too good to be true, actually.

To think, all of that misery and guilt and isolation had been for nothing.

"I'm not planning that, no," Finn answered almost absently, stepping forward and loosely wrapping his hand around Poe's bicep again. "I'm going to kiss you, okay?"

[flightforfreedom]

Not a monk. Not in love with Rey. Mutually more than friends.

Everything was bubbling and churning under Poe’s skin until he could barely sit still, an overwhelming mix of emotions overtaking him.

Poe didn’t reply. Not with words, anyway. Instead he surged forward, taking Finn’s face between his hands and the pressing a hard kiss to his lips.

[hatejakku]

That surprised him even though it really shouldn't have. Finn kind of stumbled from the force of it, hands reaching from Poe's arms to his waist just to steady himself... and then for very different reasons.

He kissed back, slowly pressing closer to Poe and allowing the rest of his thoughts to slip away. The Force was singing from their connection again. That's all he needed to know.

[flightforfreedom]

Poe didn’t have the Force and he didn’t super understand it, but he didn’t need to. Right now, in this moment, all that mattered to him in the entire universe was the man before him, the one who was pressing up against him, making his heart flutter and his pulse skip.

His lips parted teeth and tongue gently teasing Finn’s lips apart as well before he deepened the kiss with a low groan.

[hatejakku]

Finn groaned in response, whatever thoughts he had about the Force and connections flitting away the instant he felt Poe's tongue. One hand cupped the back of Poe's head as he tilted and moved to deepen their kiss a little further, doing his part.

The rest of him just kept pressing closer, trying to get the last year's worth of pent up emotions out of this, pushing them back just a little.

[flightforfreedom]

His pulse quickened, easily accepting the deepened kiss and returning it hungrily, not even noticing that Finn was slowly pushing him backwards until his back hit an empty supply crate. He threaded his arms around Finn's neck, pulling him closer, groaning lowly against his lips.

He'd been trying to get himself laid for the last week, without any luck what so ever, so his body was responding far too quickly to the new attention. Not now he tried to tell it, though with Finn pressed so close it was inevitable that the other man would be able to tell.

He wasn't sure he cared.

But he did have to break this kiss to breathe at some point, which he did raggedly, his lips a little reddened, his gaze half lidded.

"... Uh... that was nice," he declared lamely.

[hatejakku]

Yeah. He felt it. In a lot of ways. Poe's emotions and wants were practically screaming at him now, no matter how much of an invasion Finn thought it might be. But even without the Force, he would have definitely had a strong idea.

Especially since his body wasn't exactly keeping quiet either.

Despite all of that, though, Poe's words was like an awkward blanket over the situation. Finn wet his lips, breathing a little hard. "Yeah. That was. It was... really nice..."

[flightforfreedom]

Cool, great Poe, just go ahead and put a blaster bolt through your foot while you’re at it, huh?

He wet his lips, feeling self conscious but giddy at the same time, and hooked his fingers into Finn’s belt loops to tug him a little closer.

“Look, ah... what do you say to maybe continuing this conversation somewhere a little more provate? In case Rey storms back in here to yell at me again —“

[hatejakku]

Finn moved closer very easily, his eyes on Poe's lips even as his own raised into a slow smile. "Just because of Rey, huh?"

Though, that did remind him that he should really talk to her at some point soon. Later, though. Later. He had much more important things going on right now.

He pulled away from Poe but kept his hands on him. "My quarters are closer."

[flightforfreedom]

“Don’t really want Suralinda wandering in to say ‘I told you so’ either,” he said wryly, though his expression was starting to soften, a small smile warming on his lips.

“Your place sounds good.”

[hatejakku]

"Good." Finn tugged a little at Poe, not really looking away from him until he actually had to see where he was going as they made their way out of the abandoned hangar.

He was a little more than grateful that they didn't run into Rey on the journey. Soon enough, Finn was elbowing his way into his quarters, the space about as cramped as everyone else's with a bit more of an organized clutter considering what a General got up to in a day's time. There was plenty of room for whatever they were about to get up to, though.

Finn turned back to Poe as soon as the door shut, smiling wider now and taking a kiss of his own.

[flightforfreedom]

Poe's smile had just started tugging up his lips before they were stolen in another kiss. He groaned against Finn's mouth, fingers finding there way to Finn's chest, gripping into his jacket as he pressed closer, deepening the kiss.

He pressed back against him, his pulse picking up again, though he quickly broke off the quick.

"Should we be talking?" He asked a little breathlessly. "Or, uh, not talking --"