lina_musebox | ;rey&poe

“No..that’s...not true. I..” her mind was spinning trying to process what was going on. How she knew a creature that she never met before and how right it felt to hold them, pet them. How these two knew her, or even spoke the same language long forgotten by history.

“I’m no one, I have no family.” She grew up alone. A young woman who had no one to turn to. Someone her parents didn’t want. Someone who was broken in so many places and easily disposable. Her worth only boiling down to what she could do. What used she had, and how she had to fight for her own education.

Tears started to prick at the corners of her eyes but she forced them dow. She forced those feelings down because none of this was real. It was a ploy to get her down here and....and do something. What that was, she wasn’t sure.

“You have the wrong person. This....this isn’t for me.”

A darkness fell over Poe's face again and his fingers curled tight at his side. He hadn't really been prepared for this, and gods but it hurt to hear here reject them out of hand.

He bit his tongue before he said something he would really regret, and then patted the side of his leg, Beebee immediately trotting over to join him.

"You're the farthest thing from 'no one' that there is," was all he replied, stubbornly, before looking at Finn.

"There's no point trying to convince her on the stairs. We'll take her down to the garden." And he turned, giving Beebee's head - heads? - head a gently scrub as he continued into the dark.

Finn watched Poe start moving again, sharing in some of his darkness. But where Poe was angry, Finn was terribly saddened. Rey thinking that little of herself, thinking she was no one, broke his heart just a little more.

"You had a family," he offered quietly, trying and failing to hide the anguish he felt. "You still do if you'll have us."

But he was beginning to doubt. Why would she at this rate? Why believe them at all? Why trust them? It was too much.

Finn didn't reach for her hand again, instead stepping away to follow Poe. "C'mon, you used to love the gardens. They're yours, after all."

Poe’s demeanor shifted again, dark and angry. For Finn, his was sadness and maybe doubt? It was easy for Rey to see but, she was so confused and it was becoming overwhelming. She had grown up with nothing and kindness was a rare thing. Even rarer when it came with no conditions.

“....I lived in foster care when I was five until I was eighteen..” she murmured softly, forcing herself to keep walking, thinking her words would make them understand why she viewed herself in such a state. Her words were true, she had no family to speak of so to be told she did have a family—-it had to be some cruel joke.

Rey took in a deep breath, continuing down the stairs down to where they wanted to take her. The gardens? Persephone loved flowers, she was the Goddess of Spring, more or less but again, that’s not who Rey was. That was someone else. Someone she didn’t know, but she also didn’t know Poe or Finn but they seemed to think otherwise.

Rey remained quiet as they continued to walk, holding back her emotions and her confusion. Maybe this was all some weird dream and she’d wake up soon enough.

He heard her, but it didn't give him a greater context. He couldn't remember being a child, let along having a childhood. But the fact that anything or anyone would make Rey feel lesser infuriated him.

He led them down into the dark, into the warmth, she stairs slowly beginning to wind in a spiral, the walls becoming rough and rugged. There was the sound of dripping water, somewhere, and the crackle of flame, but nothing visible. Eventually, he slowed, and the stairs came to a stop, opening up into a great cavern. It looked dark, at first. But when he stepped out further into the space, and trained his eyes upward, he was met with what looked like an entire galaxy, spread across the high cieling of the cavern. Tiny glowing lights, flickering and purple. Slowly, as the three of them entered, the lights began to glow brighter, until the giant cavern was illuminated as clearly as on a full moon's night.

Finn didn't know what to make of her words. For mortals, that's a lifetime, he knew. She must have been small and vulnerable during this time, too. He hated the mere thought.

When no other words were forthcoming, he stepped off of the stairs and watched light dance on the ceiling before turning back to her. "This is our home." Our. Hers, too, even if she didn't want it. "If you ever need somewhere to go, this place is always open to you."

Clearly, he still seemed to be under the assumption that she would be free to go. That was a bridge to cross later, though.

"Back then, you thought a garden would make it a little more lively. Couldn't really blame you at the time." The lack of sunlight even got to Finn every now and then, even if there was a time after her death that he couldn't stand to feel it on his skin. "Not bad so far, right?"

Rey didn't know what to expect when she stepped off the staircase, her feet on solid ground once more. She was at a loss for words, and trying to figure out what her next steps needed to be. If she could still run, if she could find a way out...or be confused and received more answers that didn't make any sense, and would only hurt the pair more. She still didn't believe this was for her-that she was whatever Goddess or person they thought she was. Rey had grown up living in a crappy home, with a guardian who didn't give a shit about her, and spent more nights hungry than she'd care to admit.

This? This seemed like some fairytale, but those weren't true. Just as myths and legends weren't true.

However, she would have to reevaluate all of that upon looking up to see a vast galaxy on the ceiling. Twinkling lights like stars, and planets, and constellations that were breath taking. It was as if they had the whole night sky to themselves. Faint images raced through her mind of three people spending hours and even days here, enjoying the light of the full moon and relaxing...coming to get away when something weighed heavy on them.

"It's beautiful...." But it wasn't an actual garden? There were no plants, only a galaxy--which was impressive in and of itself, but once she looked down and away from it...she saw a lush garden with various flowers, trees, and more in front of them. Fields of flowers of different hues and shapes. Trees that offered shade, or long branches to climb....

Even slabs of stone for benches and small fountains. Romantic--whimsical even. And utterly familiar. Wait, a moment. She had seen this place before, in her dreams. on nights where she felt so lonely, she dreamed of this place, waiting for someone to find her--or someone's.

"It's not bad, but....I've dreamed of this place before. I thought it wasn't real."

Poe both loved and hated this garden. There were a few centuries where he'd refused to even step foot in it - the memory of Rey being so viciously potent and the grief at her loss so consuming that he was afraid in his rage he'd just burn it all down.

Other times, all he wanted was to be here and never leave.

He couldn't tell how he felt, right now. His chest was a whirling vortex of conflicting emotions. Happy to have her here, happy to see her, but so, so very angry at the fact that she'd somehow been taken from them even more than before.

To be right here, so close and yet out of reach--

"It's yours," Poe rumbled, an echo to Finn, even though he couldn't look at her. He crouched down and focused on Beebee instead, rubbing him down thoroughly. "Finn and I, we... This place looked very different, before you. You brought life here, to a lifeless place."

Finn himself felt much like a vortex, too. He wished that Poe hadn't acted so quickly, regretting they didn't have that spare moment to step back and think through all of this. Now everything has happening, and they had to just roll with the punches.

Yet, where Poe could hardly glance at her, Finn found it difficult to look away. She was here, standing before them, and he was almost convinced it was a dream. However, it seemed that dreams were more real than he thought. He smiled at her, wide and almost tearful, when she recognized her home.

"It's very real. You spent so long creating every little detail and then you'd hardly leave." She often dragged them both there, whether they were busy or not. All three of them laying in the grass and watching their stars. Their own perfect world.

He held a hand out to her and nodded back towards a gigantic willow glittering in starlight several feet away. "One of your favorite spots was by that tree. Maybe you'll remember more if we walked around a little?"

There was a slow nod of her head, tearing her gaze away from the garden to slip her hand in Finn’s. She didn’t know what to think. It was all so overheated but things were coming to her but it was in spurts? And they weren’t full memories. Just images and feelings. Nothing concrete.

“I’m still confused by all of this. It shouldn’t make any sense...”

He almost didn't follow them. He considered it, for a few seconds. Finn was handling this a hell of a lot better than he was, and he was worried that if he kept up with them that he'd lose his temper again and drive her away. So even as they walked, he stayed with Beebee, the hound making a low questioning sound.

"I know, buddy," He murmured softly to the dog. "I don't know what to do, either."

He'd been happy, often, to watch his lovers - his wife, his husband, his other halves - be together. Not be part of it, necessarily, not all the time, just to watch the two of them enjoy each other's company. Finn had a special smile, just for Rey, and Rey had a special smile, just for Finn, and he had often liked to bask in it. In how much they loved each other. In how much they loved him. But now, as he turned his head to watch them walk away, all he saw was Rey's hesitancy and confusion, and Finn's worry.

It gave him nothing but pain, to stay back and watch them now.

So he finally got up, following after them and thrusting his hands into his pockets, little dark clouds of something like dust or smoke trailing after his feet.

"Mortals make everything more complicated than it is," He murmured. "It's not that science isn't real, or doesn't work. It just doesn't apply to us. Think about it like... another plane of existence. We share their world, sometimes, but we also exist somewhere else. Right now? You're somewhere else. A mortal could dig down from the exact spot I made the stairs and never find this place. It won't make sense if you keep trying to fit it into the physical world you know."

Mmm, maybe telling her that she wasn't on the mortal plane of existence anymore wasn't a good call. Again, Finn rolls with it. He has to.

Besides, there were more important things. Her hand was in his again. She reached for him again. He could burst with joy if he wasn't terrified of the disappointment he knew would come. She was scared and confused, but... this was still progress.

Instead of letting her realize and focus on the fact that she was trapped here - a fact that even Finn was now ready to fight - he tried to emphasize Poe's point. "Think of it like a- a... far away land. Something out of stories. It's real but it doesn't have to make sense. It just is.

"You made this garden, remember? You did it with the same abilities we have. With enough time, you could do it all again."

He directed her beneath the willow tree that they had napped under countless times in the distant past. It felt so strange to bring her back here now. He could scarcely believe this was happening.

“But science is universal,” Rey murmured in reply, looking over her shoulder to see Poe trailing behind them. Wisps of...smoke? Following him? It was hard to say but she felt a faint wisp of his emotions. It wasn’t her intention to inflict on pain on either of them. She didn’t know what was going on, but she was still following Finn with her hand in his.

Not to mention, she was mortal. Or...she was? Is? She isn’t sure anymore. Maybe she should start questioning everything now.

There was a shake of her head.

“I don’t remember anything just....feelings..” and again, she wants to deny that it’s her but the words never leave her lips. Instead, she’s taken to a willow tree that has to be ancient. Judging by its size, it was over a thousand years old. But....in sitting under it, she didn’t recall anything. It’s a good spot for star gazing but that was it.

“...do you want to sit?” She asked, directing her question to Poe. She was giving in, trying to meet them halfway but still not believing anything....yet.

"Sure, in that universe."

His palm itched, that ghost of a feeling making his fingers curl as if he could take both their hands in his from here. But he didn't reach out. Finn was the bridge. Always had been. Sometimes Poe forgot that, but in moments like this is made his heart ache with how much he loved that side of him.

He pauses.

"You two sit." He isn't sure he can, yet. The anger and grief still curling in him like a half-smothered flame. Sitting still is unlikely.

"I'm right here, I'm not going anywhere,' He adds, as if he feels she needs the reassurance. He crosses his arms, the dark curling smoke dissipating around his feet.

She sat down! Finn could probably vibrate out of his skin with the hope and happiness overwhelming him. He knew that he should be much more cautious, shouldn't get his hopes too high, but things were going in their favor now. It was possible that they could really be together again.

Finn sat down with her but gave a saddened look to Poe. It wasn't that he couldn't blame him for trying to keep his distance, but he hadn't opened up to her yet either. It was the same fear that Finn was trying to warn himself to heed and couldn't. That fear could send him in the other extreme, though, and he may not let her into his heart at all. Not until he was sure she would stay.

It was such a difficult thing to juggle. Finn wasn't sure what to do except try to keep her calm and comfortable and happy. In doing so, maybe Poe would lighten up a little.

His worried eyes flicked away from him and back down to his goddess, the hesitant smile reappearing on his face. "Feelings are good. What kinds of feelings?"

The logical side of Rey wanted to argue with Poe that in all universes that science and knowledge transposed all things. Magic didn't just exist, same as Gods, and yet here she was looking up at a galaxy above their heads and talking to a united couple that was 'Hades.' Or, at least Poe seemed to cover the fire and brimstone of it. his temper seemed to run hot, or, that could be the unintentional pain she inflicted upon him earlier.

A flicker of what could be described as disappoint appeared in her eyes, but it was quickly shut down as she looked back up at the branches and leaves of the willow tree. It...had flowers once, didn't it?

"Deja vu type feelings," Rey murmured, continuing to hold onto Finn's hand, her thumb tracing the back of his palm as she chewed on her lower lip to try and process things.

"Bits and pieces, and flashes of images but...they're not making much sense. None of this is," she stated in a soft voice, hoping by saying her thoughts aloud, those 'memories' would somehow appear in her mind, or give the pair a glimpse to her struggle with what they were trying to do.

Fuck it, if nothing was going to make sense, she might as well fully dive into it. Rey let out a soft sigh and slowly fell backwards, laying down on the soft soil and grass, her eyes fluttering shut as she told herself to just...believe for one moment that all of this was real. That magic, gods, and everything else were real.

"I get it, you want me to remember. You want me to remember this place, both of you...and that's a lot of pressure, but...if I can't? What then? And..." she had to be honest with both of them about this.

"What if I'm different--no, I am different. I'm not the same person as you remember, and what would that do to you two?" Would they still want to keep her down here, or would she be free to go? What was their end goal?

His hand worked at his side, fingers curling in and gripping tight. Damn it. She was just as beautiful as he remembered her, even trying to tell him she was someone else entirely. He'd tried to ignore Finn's sorrowful glance at her, tried to pretend that he hadn't noticed that flicker of disappointment in Rey's face.

Damn it.

If she rejected them now--

But he was already moving, letting out a hard breath and stepping over until he could flop down beside Rey. Flanked by the two faces of Hades, in the garden of the dead.

"I don't care how different you are," He said, his voice low and rough. "You're still you. You're still Rey. Hearts don't change that much, even over millenia."

Edited 2019-09-02 04:38 (UTC)

She was asking the really hard questions that had been circling Finn's mind for quite a while now. Instead of immediately answering, he tried to focus on her hand in his, a gift he never thought he'd have again. If this was all they got, it was more than maybe they should ever have. Certainly, more than they could ask for.

Yet, ask they did.

"We still care for you," he answered, just repeating what Poe had said. "Even if you never remember, it won't change how we feel. We've missed you for so long... We're just grateful to see you again." She was still Rey. She would always be their Rey. "This place will always be open to you as your home... if you want it."

Rey heard Poe's footsteps walking towards them, half expecting for him to lay beside Finn, but she felt him move next to her. She was boxed in by the two men, two faces she may have loved so many eons ago, but faces she could barely knew. There were more flashes in her mind; the three of them beneath the willow tree, taking long naps, sometimes she was in the middle, but they all took turns. She made flower crowns for them a few times, and she made them for the young children who came to the Underworld. Sweet lives who didn't have the chance to bloom and thrive....she always had a soft spot for them.

They still cared for her...their words pierced her heart and those tears she tried to keep at bay finally fell. She felt how much they cared for her, how much she had been loved and missed. Something she hadn't felt in this life.

Rey turned her head slightly, facing Poe, not caring for the tears that stained her cheeks as her eyes stared into his.

"I need time to process this. But I..." she found herself squeezing Finn's hand while the other reached out to Poe. Instead of going for the other's hand, her fingers brushed the side of his face.

"I won't leave. I won't leave either of you." Not when it felt like she'd lose a piece of herself in doing so. Electricity hummed in her body, their bonds reforming from touching both of the men who she called her husbands.

He felt something crack in his chest, almost painfully, but he wasn't sure if it was his heart or the cage he'd been trying to build around it. Protect it, from what he thought was coming.

But then her fingers brushed his cheek and sent a shudder of longing right through him - electricity under his skin. I won't leave, she promised, I won't leave either of you.

Any remaining willpower he had to stay aloof from all this completely vanished. His chest filled with a bright white warm, a longing millenia old, and before he could think about it - because he never really thought through things before he did them - he was reaching out, gently guiding her chin towards him as he leaned in to press a warm, slow kiss to her lips.

The electricity, the reformation of their bonds, struck a chord deep in Finn's chest. That, coupled with her promise made his hope overflow.

He couldn't dare pretend there was still an alternative now. She wanted to be here, she wanted to never leave them again, and that's exactly what would happen. It could work. They would be happy a-

... Poe really just went for the kiss, didn't he? Finn froze with wide eyes and bated breath, waiting for her reaction. It wasn't like he didn't want to kiss her (of course he did!), but he really didn't want to scare her away either.

He unconciously held her hand tighter, moving closer as if this image was just a mirage and could vanish any second.

Well...a kiss wasn't something Rey was expecting, least of all from a once hostile or grumpy Poe. Surprisingly...he was gentle. He didn't force her chin up in a dominant, swift manner. But, in a slow and kind movement, and lips that felt so soft against her own. Enough to make Rey shyly kiss him back and guide Finn's hand to her waist for him to hold her.

A natural feeling, one that felt so right, as though they had done it thousands of times before. Be it all three of them kissing under the same tree while holding each other. Or, Rey upset with Poe and his soft kisses could easily curb her anger....or the times where she'd curl up against Finn and leave soft, light kisses along his cheek.

Sweet memories that were just beyond Rey's grasp, but the feelings of happiness and love were there for her to touch.

Slowly, she began to pull back from Poe, not because she felt uncomfortable but...that was her first kiss and she had no idea what she was doing. However, something within her compelled her to share the same experience with Finn. The hand on Poe's cheek shifted to grab his hand while she slowly rolled onto her side to give Finn a slow, shy kiss of her own.

Home. This felt like home.

He didn’t chase after her as she pulled away, saving that tingly taste of a kiss long after her lips had left his. He gave a soft sigh, opening his eyes just in time to watch her roll towards Finn.

It almost belt better, if that were possible, watching the two of them finally shared a kiss after what seemed like eons. He shuffled closer, wrapping an arm around Rey’s waist, and leaning in to press a kiss to her jaw, and another to her throat.

He just wanted to be as close to them as was humanly - or godly - possible.

“Welcome home,” he whispered.

Edited 2019-09-02 06:35 (UTC)

Finn, surprised that not only was Rey okay with that sudden kiss but that she had also rolled over to face him now, had him melting into her touch. The relief was palpable and finally settling somewhere deep in his chest, a permanent fixture that meant this was real and happening and permanent.

He returned the kiss gently just like he'd done millions of times before, barely opening his lips to her and just basking in the physical contact. His free hand carded over her hair and gently across her cheek, fluttering over Poe's hair like no time had passed at all.

When Poe spoke, he gently pulled away, his lips still ghosting against hers, but he had to see her face again. His smile and joy were so bright and blinding that it hurt him so terribly well. Like an awful wound was finally starting to heal.

"Welcome home," he repeating in a breath.

Rey's eyes were still closed, but she felt how bright and warm Finn's smile was. As bright and blindly as the sun itself. It made her heart race and ache all at once. Poe was behind her, holding her, and had placed sweet kisses on her skin that made her yearn for more. But, she was still overwhelmed by what she felt.

Years of living on her own--no, surviving on her own and feeling lonely on a day to day bases to suddenly feeling love and kindness, and a sense of belonging that she never had before. A lot to process. A lot for her to come to terms with. Even more so would be the mortal and goddess sides--or fuck, if she had powers or anything of the like?

And of course, her rational, mortal mind continuing to scream how none of this made fucking sense, but she stopped listening to that side of herself for the last few minutes.

When her eyes do open, she can see Finn's radiant smile and more tears flow from her eyes. Years of being separated and finally reconnected...she couldn't imagine what that must've been like for him and Poe.

"Can we stay for a bit longer....please?" she asked the pair, wanting to lay in the grass, not caring about the stains on her clothes, or what a mess her hair would end up becoming.

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