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Sex Pollen Pre Relationship
Poe Dies Pre Relationship
Nightmare Early Relationship
Hogwarts AU Pre Relationship
Poe Almost Dies Pre Relationship
MoM AU First Night
Slightly Older Hogwarts AU
Post-TLJ
Bodyguard and Prince AU; overflow
Massage Pre Relationship
Oblivious Poe AU
Cyborg Poe AU
MoM AU Sex Pollen
FO Infiltration Sex Ring
TFLN
Soulmate Tattoo AU
Finn Marries Someone Else AU
Evil Finn AU; overflow: 1, 2
MoM AU Poe 10 Yrs Older
Vamp/Were AU
Missing for a Year/Telepathy AU
MoM AU Poe 'canon' updated
Dark Possessive AU
Married on Yavin AU
MoM AU Sexy Outfits
MoM AU Subway Sex
MoM AU with Melodies!Finn; overflow
MoM AU Photo-Op Kiss
Nearly Old Men AU
MoM AU Rule 63
Online Dating AU
MoM AU Poe Lost His In-Game Memories; overflow
Trans Poe AU
College Roommate AU
TIE Pilot/Prostitute AU
MoM AU Finn Returns from Port-Out
MoM AU Manipulative Masturbation Machine
Canon AU Manipulative Masturbation Machine
Shape Shifter AU; timeskip
FO Sexual Torture AU
MoM AU Finn Has a Boyfriend
Hades AU Finn Left Alone
MoM AU Apocalypse
MoM AU Poe Died in Canon
Canon AU Handjob in a Hospital (inspiration)
MoM AU Another Apocalypse
WWI Pen-Pal/Love Letters AU
Institutionalized Prostitution AU
MoM AU Body Swap
Post-TROS Victory Party

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Poe couldn’t help it. He glanced down at Finn’s arms, but it was true. There wasn’t even the faint outline of where a dormant tattoo should be.

He felt a sudden surge of sympathy and he looked at Finn apologetically.

“You have no idea what I’m talking about.” The words were almost soft. Poe looked sheepish, but he held out his arm for Finn to inspect, the light dimming and brightening in time with his pulse. Though that was a little fast than usual.

“It’s a... it’s a pretty standard device. Most people are given one when they are 18. It’s supposed to, uh... it’s supposed to help you find your soulmate.”

He could deal when other people gave him that sad look, but Finn really hated it coming from Poe. Still, the other didn't pause or try to jump around the subject. Just extended his hand and explained.

Finn stepped forward before he finished, lightly touching his wrist and stopping short. "Soulmate? How?" That was a thing people could find?

Then he looked at it again. "So, wait, you... have a soulmate?" Finn didn't have one, which was already enough of a blow, but Poe's... tattoo thing was activated. He definitely had a soulmate, even if Finn hadn't noticed, like an idiot. There had never been a shred of hope for them, had there?

He lightly touched it again, the glow mesmerizing. "Lucky person, huh?"

“Honestly, no idea how it works.” His skin prickled under Finn’s touch and he felt his ears grow hot but he pushed it aside.

“Not a flawless system, though. It doesn’t always trigger mutually for two people. Sometimes it activates for one person and not the other.” But if Finn didn’t have one... well, maybe that explained it?

But he’d seen Rey’s. He hadn’t meant to look, but he couldn’t help it. It was activated too, even though she generally kept her arms wrapped right.

“I, uh- it’s not mutual.” He said with a shrug. “No one has activated for me. I don’t think. So. Not that lucky.”

That... was certainly a flawed system. "Does it get things wrong often?" There didn't seem to be a point. If it got things wrong, then hopes were dashed. Finn... wondered if he'd rather just not know.

Plus he had no idea what he should tell Poe? Sorry? He was sad that Poe was cheated, but there was a selfish, guilty part of him that said he still had a chance. Instead he settled on: "Doesn't seem fair."

“Nah, I’m just special.” He gave Finn a sheepish smile. “Something like a one in a million chance.”

But there was a new and blazing hope burning in his chest. His lips parted, about to say ‘we should test it’, but he thought of Rey and his courage faded.

“You could always ask others, if you wanted to learn about it. People who’ve had it work. Snap and Kare tried to pretend theirs weren’t pinging each other for years.”

Finn gave a sheepish smile in return, but the thought was depressing. What if he fell in love with someone that wasn't meant to be his?

Was that what happened to Poe? Did he love this person his tattoo pulsed for?

It just didn't seem worth it. "I'm sorry," he finally said. "This thing's supposed to help and it's-..." It's doing this instead. "Thanks for showing me."

The hope flickered, fading, and Poe took his arm back, putting his hands in his pockets.

He tried to shrug casually. “Hey. You know me. Married to the cause, right? It’s kind of fitting.” He wet his lips, watching Finn. “It did help, though. When it wasn’t on at all, it was real easy to just ignore all of that. Which might be backwards, but.” His heart thumped hard enough that he could feel it in his throat.

“Only been a couple months since it lit up,” he admitted, a little too quickly.

Finn desperately wanted to ask if he could still get one, but that seemed cruel considering Poe's situation. To be hopeful, when Poe had nothing to show for it.

Oh, if only Finn had one of his own. A couple months... That could have been him. If he had a tattoo like that, it could have been the other half to Poe's. In reality, they were both alone.

"Why did it do that? Why did it activate without another? Could it... just have malfunctioned or-...?" He didn't know what he was talking about so stopped the questions there.

“Nah, it worked. I would have known anyway, I think. Or well, I don’t know. Maybe I would have written it off as a crush, but...” he fidgeted.

“They spark when you meet. Some people, they get theirs and it activates in a day. Took mine fourteen years. Which is pretty unusual in itself, so I should have known it was always going to be complicated.”

He paused, wetting his lips.

“Honestly, I thought Rey would have told you about them.” But maybe she felt the same way Poe did?

So... Poe was definitely in love with someone. While Finn was heartbroken that he'd been skipped over, he felt much worse that whoever Poe loved hadn't returned his feelings. It's soulmates. Didn't sound like something a person just got over.

But he didn't know what to say to that. There was nothing he really could say to make it any better. He desperately wanted to ask who this other person was, but that was private... not to mention it would definitely drive Finn to confrontation.

Instead, he latched on to the one other thing Poe mentioned. "Rey has one? I hadn't noticed." He didn't expect her to have gotten one on Jakku... Made him feel just that much more isolated, really.

“Yeah, she keeps it hidden. Maybe she’s embarrassed.” Or, more likely, she thought it wasn’t recripocated.

“You should talk to her about it.”

Maybe she’d convince Finn to get one.

"Even though she might be embarrassed?" To be honest, Finn didn't really want to talk about these tattoos to anyone ever again. Maybe he should consider getting his own, but a part of him didn't want to. He hadn't needed one before, didn't know they existed until a moment ago.

And if it wasn't Poe, then- Maybe he'd find someone, though. Someone for him. Maybe he already knew them, and they were just waiting for him to get a tattoo, too. Was that part of it? If he never bothered, would his soulmate always be alone? Just like him now?

Catching himself lost in thought, Finn shook himself. "I, uh- I don't want to make people uncomfortable..." Another subject. Any other subject. "Um, so, how many of these crates we got left?"

“With you? I doubt it. I doubt she even knows you don’t have one.”

He watched Finn a second too long and then forced a smile to his lips.

“Uh- maybe a dozen.” But he took the subject change for what it was - a quiet instruction to drop the topic, and he obliged.

"I'll... try to ask," he finally relented. It was Rey, after all. She wouldn't begrudge him too much if he didn't push hard.

But, right. Crates. Judging from Poe's forced smile, the faster they finished this work and left, the better off this whole subject would be. "We can handle that," he sighed and quickly (though awkwardly) took back to the task.

Poe didn’t bring it up again.

Mostly that was because he was thrown back into work, back into missions, and if he was a little more gung-ho about it than usual, who could blame him? Sometimes he felt like the entire Resistance day on his shoulders, and so he kept a bright face up when appropriate, and a stern war-like one when required, and played his role as well as he was able. Leia was giving him more and more responsibilities, and he couldn’t say no.

Even if it felt like he was tearing chunks out of himself whenever he had to be far from Finn.

He got back far too late at night for this latest mission. Everyone was asleep save the droids, and Poe couldn’t help but relish the quiet moment that was so different from everything he’d been through, lately. He sat down by the only window - a huge broad thing that looked out over the back approach to the base - grasslands and a forest beyond. And the sky. A huge sky, full of stars.

He felt the tingle in his arm that alerted him that he was in the same place as Finn. It had started pulsing as soon as he was on base, but he’d only given it attention now. He pulled up his sleeve to watch it glow in time with his heart beat, and he let out a long sigh as he touched it with his finger tips.

“Yeah, I already know he’s here,” he whispered quietly to the tattoo. It did not answer him.

Finn had eventually gotten up the nerve to ask Rey about her tattoo. She had been a bit defensive at first before realising his situation, much in a similar way to Poe. Only, Rey had only been too happy to tell him all about her soulmate.

When he brought up problems like Poe's (without mentioning names), she assured him that those things happened so rarely that she wasn't sure they were real. Finn knew otherwise but kept silent.

Time passed, and Finn tried to bury the whole idea. Unsuccessfully. What eventually wore him down was the thought of his soulmate alone all because he wasn't brave enough to see this through. So, purposely choosing a time when Poe was away on a long mission, Finn got his own tattoo. He didn't want to add insult to injury when it came to the other man, and Rey was all the cheerleader he really needed. It looked almost normal on his skin, not glowing and beautiful. All that was left was to wait.

He wanted to show Poe as soon as he got back. Not to boast but to make him aware as soon as possible rather than hear it from someone else...

Though the warm pulse in the middle of the night woke him up. Half convinced it was a dream, Finn rolled out of bed and followed the sensation as best he could. And what he found was- "Poe?" He quietly stood at the other end of the hall, his arm angled away in an attempt to hide what must be a dreadful misunderstanding.

The voice startled him and Poe immediately sat up straight, tugging his sleeve down sharply, but giving Finn’s warm(if slightly sheepish) smile when he recognized him.

“Oh hey, bud. No luck sleeping? I uh - I just got back.”

"Did it go okay?" Because some things just came first.

At the same time, Finn was fidgeting and knew it. Poe was clearly the only one here, and this new mark was practically screaming at him about it. Except Poe already found his soulmate in another.. who didn't find their soulmate in him...

Should he show him now? Should he tell him?

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“Yeah, about as well as you’d expect. Wandered right into a First Order outpost that I didn’t know was there. But it isn’t there, now.”

If it were anyone else, Poe would begrudge them the interruption, but Poe could never pretend he didn’t want to be with Finn whenever he could. So he just stood up and walked over to him, the gentle pulse in his arm going ignored.

“Everything going alright on this end?”

Poe seemed to enjoy being in the depths of the war, much to Finn's unhappiness. Sure, someone had to do it, and Poe was the best pilot for the jobs they threw at his feet, but it did it have to be all the time? Did they all have to be in the thick of it?

Or perhaps Finn was just overly worried because of the connection he held the entire time. When Poe walked closer, there was no mistaking who the tattoo was trying to reach out for. How was that fair, though? The one person he wanted, the one person he couldn't have- He was already regretting this whole decision.

"Y-Yeah, it-... Um-" He had no idea how to begin or what to even disclose, so Finn just held his arm out to show him the activated tattoo. Better than words, he reasoned.

Poe paused, his world stilling for half a second, first a burst of hope filling his chest and then despair sinking in his stomach immediately after. He stepped over, reaching out to take Finn’s arm to get a better look at it.

He couldn’t read it’s signals, of course. Those were for Finn along. But it was impossible not to notice that it was activated. He forced a smile to his lips that he hoped was soft.

“She convinced you to get one, huh?” His voice was quiet, and he met Finn’s eyes as his heart sank.

“Congratulations.”

"Rey had a hand in it, yeah." She really had convinced him, her hope making him almost foolish towards the idea.

Though, he didn't know what to make of Poe's expression. Was he just tired after the mission? Or did he feel worse for his own situation? Or did he know what he was to Finn and didn't want that? Whatever it was, his touch felt so much more electrifying now that Finn had to take a deep breath before continuing.

"I... think it's sort of the same as yours, though. I don't think they feel the same way."

It was possible, but Poe never mentioned that his tattoo reacted to Finn specifically. He still wasn't even sure they could activate when the other person had no tattoo. There were too many questions, a lot of possibilities, and not enough hope. Finn couldn't bring himself to go any deeper with it like this.

“What?” Poe’s head snapped up with a frown.

“Why did she tell you to get it, then? I mean - you were hers, right?” That had been his assumption from the start.

He really should let Finn’s arm go, but for some reason he couldn’t. His tattoo was pulsing faster - or was it his heart was racing and his tattoo was trying to keep up?

Why did she-? "No. No, Rey and I aren't-" Finn shook his head, confused why Poe even thought that. She might be a private person, but Rey wasn't shy about talking at length about her soulmate.

Yet, Poe thought that they-... Yeah, well-... He looked away and shuffled in place, his hand turning to hold Poe's arm, too. "It's someone else. It's all right. It-" It doesn't matter. He couldn't bring himself to go that far. "It's all right."

His pulse thumping so fast that he could hear it.

“But they didn’t ping you back?” He hated how hopeful he sounded, wetting his lips as he tried to calm down a little. “I thought— look, Finn, I’m sorry. I thought it was Rey. I just figured that she and I—“ he fumbled, heartbeat overwhelmingly loud.

“Am I allowed to tell you, then? Is that okay? I know it’s not- I mean, sure, I might not be your soulmate, but I can’t really say I’m not half glad that they don’t- - I mean, fuck, I’m sorry, this is probably the worst timing—“

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